And so a new chapter begins. Again.
Except this time everything feels right. All it took was putting one foot in the sand at my favorite beach to confirm that I am home. Truly home.
I think it is rare to find the perfect place for your heart and soul. I feel exceptionally lucky to have figured out where my happy place is all those years ago. But then I left. And so did the spark of joy that I had about life. Yes, life moved along. But not enjoying things along the way was a situation that I couldn’t accept. And so I changed it all again.
And now I am back. I find myself grateful beyond words to have a second chance at this life for myself.
Which brings me to my words of advice. Take from them what you will. Or ignore them as the ravings of a mad woman. Either way, it’s all good.
If you long for a different life, make the change. Don’t worry about the “what ifs” and the “yes, buts” and definitely don’t worry about what other people think. There are no guarantees in life. None of us get out alive, so what you do with the moments you do have is what really matters.
I get it that as human beings we all want security in some form. I’m no different. But what I’ve learned over the past few years is that no amount of money in the bank or the zip code where you live or the labels on your clothes is ever more important than how you feel when you wake up in the morning. And waking up unhappy (or worse, miserable) is a shitty thing to do, day after day. And it is no way to live your life.
So stop waiting for the perfect moment to get your happiness. I can tell you from my own experience that the perfect moment never arrives. At best all you’ll end up doing is spending more time being miserable while you wait for the impossible. At worst, you’ll die without ever realizing true happiness. Now that, my friends, is a truly bleak thought.
Sometimes jumping without the net is the best thing to do. Even if it is also the scariest.